Things I've always wanted to say but never could get my mouth to say the words.
- Dad, I miss you. Thank you for loving me despite all the trash I've done.
- Russ, I miss you. My heart aches to feel your love.
- Mom, I know being a mom wasn't as easy as I figured it might have been and now I understand..
- Savior, THANK YOU for dying for my sins.. for taking away all the guilt and shame and hurt that this cruel world savors.
- Michelle, it's time to grow up... Michelle you ARE an adult, even though you don't feel like it..
- Little sister Leah, how I wish we had a chance to meet and know each other. I love having one sister that I can turn to for support and encouragement... would it have been the same if there were 3 of us?
- If you don't quit you win.
- I've always felt like a failure.
- I can't love appropriately if I can't love myself.
- People define you by your struggles, God defines you by the cry of your heart.
- I've learned that every time I swallow really hard, that is my first indication that I am "stuffing" my feelings...
- Don't be fooled by the mask I wear.
These are just a few of the places my mind goes ... until next time.
michelle my belle! i love it!! i wanted to put a thumbs up by most of them!! Except the one that you said about feeling like a failure. That is completely obserd to me b/c you have SOOO much going for you!! Beautiful, smart, loving, caring, thoughtful, just to name a few!! You ARE a great mom to your girls, like you said to me tell yourself that everyday and BELIEVE it!! You don't give yourself enough credit for all you do and how well you do it!! You are amazingly talented in your writing and i can't wait to read more!! I know that you are doing it for yourself but i think it will help and encourage others also that have and do struggle with the same things. i love you to the moon and back!!
ReplyDeleteThat is beautiful, Michelle. Wow if I could make a list like that....I am not sure even I would want to read it. Be proud of yourself for having the courage to share, and the courage to keep going forward!!! Sending much love to you....
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