I am such a nerd.  I get this blank white page in front of me and I just want to fill it up.  Why do I love this so much?  This is just so different for me that it makes my mind a little crazy.  I think about what I'm going to put in it way too many times throughout the day..hehe, dorky.. but it's okay, I have a dorky friend too :)  Anyway, kind of a bummer day for me.  Had a hard time remembering today that I am loved... but then I realized that God put some pretty cool people in my life today just so I could be reminded...that's pretty awesome.  What has been kind of a crappy day has turned out okay.  At the end of the day, when I sit down and think about it there were more blessings than bad things.  Pssshh, I'm pretty lucky!  Aaah, finally I got my attitude to change!  Yay!
On with the day.. so my precious angels that I love so very much....were waiting patiently for me to pick them up from daycare after I got off of work tonight.  I do so love their little happy screams "MOMMY" when I get there.  That makes my heart happy.  But my eldest love had a bit of an issue with a few of the neighbor kids...  anybody else's kid punch someone in the stomach?  I couldn't believe it...and then I could.  My sweet Bethany can go a little crazy sometimes.  I wonder many times how I am ever going to reign this child in.. she is drama QUEEN for sure.. loves acting and dancing and singing... which I love and admire her for, but MAN can she be naughty!  And I find myself thinking, what part did I have in that?  Did I not teach her well or right?  Anybody got any advice on this one?  She loves me, I know that, but when you hear your child screaming "You're the worst mom in the world", because she's being punished, man, it just stabs my heart.  Wow, anyone else realize how hard being a mom really is?  I had absolutely NO idea that it would be THIS hard.  I never for a second thought that adulthood and responsibility would be like this.  I will never EVER again judge my parents on the way I was raised... it is TOUGH!  Sometimes you just have to do the best you can with what you got and find a way to be blessed through it.  Of course, after her tantrum was over, she comes down from her room and mumbles that she is sorry...I'm still pretty upset.  I know she's just saying that so she can go on with her day.. I sit her down on my lap on the couch and I ask her how she thinks it makes mommy feel when she says something like that... "Very very sad" she replies... how true it is.
Okay, it's a short one, but I think that's all for now.  Peace.