Ever have one of those weeks where you want to get your thoughts typed out but at the same time you TOTALLY don't?  I suppose not many have this problem... but I certainly did this past week.  So many times throughout the week I would think, Man, I've got to sit down and process some of these thoughts...and then I find something else to do...It was a busy week, I'll give myself that, but I simply couldn't make myself do it.  There are so many things I want to say, but it's not time...I push my thoughts to the back of my mind and save them for later...that's what i've always done...but I really am tired of doing that..because after stalling and shying away from so many things for so long they build into this dark heavy wall and cloud my vision... hmm, looks like a new goal again:  talk, write, blog...whatever, I gotta do it or the wall is up.
So onward, like I said earlier, I really did have a busy week.  I could have had plans for every single night of the week except for Wednesday, but I had to pick and choose.  Monday, the first day of the week... ugggh, I remember waking up and thinking, 'crap, it's Monday again' ... that was quite possibly my first mistake of the day.  I always find it so hard to turn a crappy attitude around.  I hate every second of that crappy attitude and yet I can't get out.  Things seems to just creep out of the corners and attack from every angle.  Of course I have moments of complete peace and surrender throughout the day as God shows his love through people.  All in all, I'm pretty sure Monday ended being a pretty awesome day after all.  I was offered a gift by an amazing friend... I got to chat with my sister, I got to watch my childhood corn crib get burned down..I have to admit though on that one (I'm actually a little embarrassed about it now) that I may have cried a little bit.  I just had memories of climbing up in the rafters with my brothers, getting freaked out by rats, the many scoops of oats it took to fill the oat seeder wagon.  In fact I think I got the name "corn-cheller" from some of the corn cobs in that crib.  I don't know why, but I liked popping off all the kernels of the corn cobs... one by one.. I was shelling corn (apparently) so thus the name Corn-cheller.. it really doesn't matter now of course :) ... but I didn't like being called that.  Anyway, as I watched the smoke seep from the roof of the building many memories flooded my mind.  I'm glad I went out (with the girls :) to watch it. If I hadn't, I probably wouldn't have thought of those memories.. fun stuff.
Tuesday night I had my meeting with my "girls" :) .. always good, always yummy food :)
Wednesday.. okay day.. once again should've put my thoughts down then, but didn't :(
Thursday.. usually one of my best days... not awesome.  Struggled again throughout the day with attitude and being okay with where I'm at right now.  In the evening I had Harp & Bowl.. and BOY, did I need it!  My attitude from the week was pulling me down into the trap of self-pity and anger... I needed a break.  I needed to clear my head and hear once again how God loves us so crazy much that He allowed His Son to die on the cross for us.. so we can one day hang out in heaven and sing and dance and we'll know every aspect of His glory.  That's such a cool thought.  When I got there I worried of course if I was at the right place.. I knew what I wanted, but had my attitude been so bad all week, that I wouldn't GET it?  Silly girl!  I got exactly what I needed.  Encouragement, love, prayers and hugs.  I need to stop doubting things like that.  Every time I've needed God to show up He has... Whenever I needed to hear a word, it's there.  Pretty awesome.. true story?  yep!
Friday was interesting.  Bit of a busy day at work and then the afternoon storm that scared that be-joobers out of me.  I don't think I've ever been as nervous about a storm as I was about that one.  Not for me... for my girls.  I hated not being with them.  I wanted to know they were safe.  Phone calls made... nervous hearts calming ... finally relax and enjoy the storm .. have I mentioned I love storms?  I really think I should be a storm chaser.  If I could, I would drive out in the country and watch the storm roll in and then as soon as it started raining and I couldn't see the sky anymore, I drive like a mad-woman back to the safety of my house... that would be ideal for me... Probably won't happen any time soon, but I can always imagine :)  Friday night was fun.  I went to the Atlas Auction (my very first REAL auction ever) .. and I must say, this could be something quite dangerous for me... It was pretty fun to stick my number in the air and try to keep track of what the auctioneer was trying to say... I've never really gotten that.. it's kinda cool I guess, but can't you just say the number and point at the person?... without all the other words & noises that go along with it?  Funny.  Anyway, it was a great time... 
Saturday was cleaning and grocery day at our house.  Before getting groceries we drove out "the farm" (where I grew up) and helped (a little tiny bit :) with picking up branches from Friday's storm.  There were lots of big trees and branches down... My favorite part of that was seeing my sweet little Natalie sitting beside her Uncle Chris smiling the biggest smile ever, riding in the tractor.. super happy heart... then of course it was time to coerce the girls into going home...they were having so terribly much fun playing with their cousin that it was almost impossible to get them to leave!  But eventually we did make the drive home.  Groceries gotten, movie picked out, two little girls begging for a sleepover.  Can you call Lisha and see if Kierra can come for a sleepover?  Pleeeeease mommy, please?  Hmm, this could work out.. pizza (free, I might add :) movie, little girls' giggles.. winding up to be a great day!  It was a late one since they were a little over stimulated from a fun bath and playing dress up, but it was fun.
Today.. man I can't believe I'm finally up to today... I feel like I've been at this post forever!  Today was good.  Today was pretty much wonderful.  Sunday school this morning with my sweet little people.  A few were missing and we certainly missed them, but we had a little group of friends that made me smile and a few times say "WOW!"... Hearing their little voices singing "Jesus Loves Me" absolutely 100% melts my heart.  I love it.  After church the girls and I had to bring miss Kierra back home, so we did a little lunch time cousin time.  Burgers, cheesy potatoes & corn.. easy and yummy.. then the girls wanted soooo badly to jump on their cousins' new trampoline... in their swim suits, with an ice cold hose spilling out water onto the mat of the tramp....every bounce made icy water drops leap into the air and land on little girl skin...and they loved every minute of it.  The giggles, squeals and laughter was worth it all.  Again, it's time to go and guess who doesn't want to leave.  Uggggh, I know these kids love each other but man!!.. there's gotta be an end to playtime at some point, right?  Finally dried off and back in their clothes.. head home for a short nap.  5:00.. in need of some God time... have the girls play at the neighbors.. head to church..  Good message, Good music, Good people.. perfect way to end the weekend.  Come home, hugs, kisses, good night mommy's, I love you's...Perfect..
Peace.