Here I am... I knew this was coming.  All day I've been KNOWING that I have to get to this tonight.  So many thoughts and memories..so much love and grace.  It's actually been a pretty awesome week.  And when I say awesome I mean like spiritually and emotionally awesome.  Healing is a good word for me this week.  I'd say my spirit is healing.  I'm doing good.  I'm not sad or angry every minute of the day anymore.  I feel more love and peace than I have in a long time.
First of all, Happy Mother's Day to every mom who reads this.  Being a mother is one of the most challenging and rewarding things I've ever had to do in my life.  It's what I've always wanted... to be a mom... and some days I remember that and some days I don't.  It's so easy to get frustrated and crazy when you have kids.  They do things wrong, they do things right... you never know what's going to happen...ever.  But at the end of the day when you hear their sweet voices saying I love you mommy... you're the best mom I could ever get, there's not a whole lot that is more rewarding than that right there.  I have been extremely blessed this weekend.  From flowers from Bethany to a Serenity Fountain from them both and loving every second of seeing their happy beautiful faces.. whether it be playing with their cousins or riding their bikes... those faces.. their happy loving spirits... gives me the happiest heart imaginable...
Okay, on with my week.. Monday.. was again a Monday. I did get to meet with a friend to chat and you know how that always seems to refresh the spirit a bit...  Tuesday was fine.. meeting at night with my favorite girls.  I did have to be honest about really not feeling like being there... of course I was grateful I had been there afterwards.. always so good for me to be real and share with people I know I can trust.  Good stuff.  Wednesday, was Wednesday.  There were high and low points throughout my day...  like normal.
Thursday was a day.. I desperately needed some encouragement... Get it?  Got it. :)  The funny thing is is when I need something I tend to back away from the very thing I need.  I knew right away in the morning as I was leaving for work that I needed to text my friend/mentor and meet for a lunch date.  Did I?  Nope, of course not.  By lunch time my spirit was definitely in need of some refreshment.  My attitude had turned to crap and my mood was totally negative.  I needed someone/thing to rescue me from the pit of self pity...Get it?  Got it. :)  God places those people in your life who are there for you at the exact moment they are needed.  Those people amaze me.  The selflessness, love and grace they are capable of is beyond measure.  Thank you God.  Well, my attitude turned a little brighter and after Harp & Bowl later that night it was fully restored.  Awesome.
Friday was good.  I worked only part of the day and then was able to go with my brother, sister and sister in law to my mom's graduation from NCC's nursing program.  This woman.. she amazes me.  She is doing what she loves and will be one of the best nurses in the system... just saying. :)  So as my brother Caleb fell asleep during the looooooong speeches and my sister, well, we'll just say she kept me entertained... I loved every minute of being there to be proud of my mom.  In the evening we met with family to celebrate her graduation.  It felt good to be surrounded by people you know love and care for you... and you get to love and care right back..  Well by the end of the evening my girls and their cousins had devised a plan to have sleepovers... again.  Bethany goes with Kaylen and Kierra comes with Natalie.  Pretty sure it worked out in their favor! :)  Kierra and Natalie home with me and Bethany and Kaylen to my sisters.  They went to bed fine but decided that a 7 AM wake up call for me would be divine.  Oh yes, 7:00 on a Saturday... that's usually not okay with me but I got up and let me just say this... my house is super duper clean... whoot whoot!! :)  The girls played outside the entire day with only a few small spats to be fixed... and by the time Miss Bethany came home from Alicia's, both girls were completely beat.  Baths and bedtime.  Cozy bugs, sweet kisses and good night mommy's.... good day!!  Today was beautiful.  Showered and ready before the girls woke up... church was awesome... good music.. happy heart.  Sunday school with my sweet munchkins.  Have I said how much I love those kids??  My heart melts every time I see them... every single one.  After church we headed out to Sandy Hollow to enjoy a BEAUTIFUL day with family celebrating the one who gave us birth.  A yummy lunch, a little softball, lots of laughs, some fishing with my nieces and nephews... showering off the girls after they decided swimming in the pond would be a good idea.  They had a blast but sometimes I think my girls could be boys... for as dirty as my Bethany loves to get... it blows my mind!  Naps, cuddle time, a chat with a friend, bike rides and giggles.  Bath time and jammies... bedtime snack and kisses.  Let's just say it was another good day.
Peace.