Well, here I am.  I totally meant to get on here yesterday, but my night got away from me.  I watched a couple episodes of "New Girl".... LOVE it!.. haven't seen it?...watch it.  Funny stuff.   ....then was wiped out and ready for bed.  It was a good day for me.   For sure better than Monday.  I woke up Tues. morning refreshed and ready for a new day. I knew I had an apology to make to someone so I took care of that.  That helped my attitude even more.  And then of course there's always my Tuesday night ladies to get excited about.  Good night, yummy snacks, growing friendships... awesome.  Picked up the girls from sitters (our new best sitter ever and no one can steal her)..and no, I'm not telling who it is.  Enjoyed some play time and bible story time with them before bed... tucked them in and out they were..
And today was just a good day all around too.  Chatted with a friend or two or three....got my brain wheels turning at work, lots of laughs, sweet texts XOXO, time with my girls, a yummy supper from a great friend and even some time remembering my dad.  The sky was so clear and blue this evening that I felt like I could look up and almost see heaven on the other side.  And my dad was there.
The weather reminds me of how he would be at this time of year....ready for another long planting season, excited to enjoy being outside, working long hours and napping on the living room floor under his old green and white checkered blanket.  I can still see his smile, his laughing face, his (at times) scruffy beard :)  He worked so hard.  I wish I knew then what I know now.  I would have appreciated him so much more.  I miss him like crazy.  Sometimes I go out to the cemetery just so I can see my name on his gravestone.  I think of how lucky I was to have been his daughter.  He wasn't perfect.  I'm not either.  But my dad will always and forever have a ir-refillable (I don't think that's a word, but I like it) place in my heart.  Forever.
Peace.